The Butterfly

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The caterpillar 

The Fool

The chrysalis 

Metamorphosis 

The outcast 

The non-conformist

The odd one 

The black sheep 

The herbalist

The witch

The astrologer 

The numerologist 

The scientist 

The reiki healer

The therapist

The tarot card reader 

The poet

The alchemist 

The Magician 

Blessed with wings

Lion's Gate

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Guard my desires, 

Direct and align me with my needs,

Purify my thoughts and my heart,

Be compassionate to my subconscious,

Understand her depth and nature, 

Reward her efforts to integrate,

Darkness and enlightenment.

500 reincarnations, 

What more do I desire?

What more is there to truly be had?

Spoiled with abundance, not remembered.

To be human again,

To innately create, manifest, and cast.

Ow Lord, bless me with more,

Lion's Gate.

That City

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I had no patience for the wind

Nor the breeze chilling my skin,

I had no patience for the waves

Coming in, to greet my feet in the sand,

I wish I would have stayed much longer,

Rushed,

Always timed on my visit.

I remember the walking path, curtained by a bouquet of trees,

Green, yellow, mahogany, and red,

I miss the skyline far off enough

It felt like a staycation, a getaway

Unplanned.

I miss the greasy takeout, chasing napkins

Blowing across the sand,

I miss feeling summoned by the waves,

Far, removed, escaping my cubicle life,

To rejuvenate, to melt the stress away.

Tweezer

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My eyebrow tweezer holding your roach,

Is what you took from my sanctuary, 

No safe place, 

Never a home.

Dead roaches on the floor,

Dishes in the sink,

I wasn't able to pay my housekeeper, 

My husband gambled the rent. 

My husband, the alcoholic, 

The man that keeps your pockets filled, 

My home was robbed long before my tweezer disappeared, 

Long before the streetlights came on, and off.

Wicked Seniors

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The wicked witch hid behind organized religion,
My hard work and consistent effort won me no awards,
It brought me no comforts to keep,
A family structure that felt like my institutional fate,
With seniors being the authority figures to obey,
To be seen and not heard, I formed no boundaries,
I was a servant.

Her ugliness surfaced when her children began to die,
Hocus Pocus!
Erased her son from her final will,
Hocus Pocus! She disappeared!
Vanished from her daughter’s funeral,
She hid behind being a Christian,
In plain sight,
She hid behind the Bible,
In plain sight!

That demon was always hiding, 

In plain freaking sight!

Humiliation Ritual

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Do you blame children for what they do not know,
Do you blame the homeless for being poor,
Look at that man walking around with wrinkled clothes,
He doesn’t know an iron nor to steam his clothes, 
His smile is like the sun,
He wears his heart on his rolled-up sleeve,
He’s magnetic, attractive, 
He just bought me a cup of coffee, 
He said I was pretty. 

Do you blame the woman who doesn’t speak the language, 
She needs that frustrating job, more than it irritates you,
Look at all these people speaking to her, like she’s an alien, 
The nickel and dime class can behave so classless, 
Haven’t been taught compassion,
Tactless. 

That man’s hand is shaking, 
Where is the waitress with his drink!
He’s remembering his old woman,
The one he left with his children,
Where in the hell is his drink!
He needs to shake that feeling off,
He’s addicted to Blackjack, 
Lost is the loser!

The city doesn’t know rain,
It floods all the time,
This ship’s been sinking, 
It still behaves like the Titanic, 
Surprised that woman in her final years,
Said it was the first time hearing the news,
She never heard the ship sunk,
Times haven’t changed, 
History’s still the same.

No Kings on Earth

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It is impossible for any man,

There is only God,
I don’t trust that any man is coming to save me,
What power do men really have,
They’ve never protected me,
They’ve never provided for me,
They’ve only wasted my time,
With a fantasy!

I don’t see men capable at all,
I’ve seen God,
They are no match to Him,
There is no comparison,
It is a difficult position,
Given this circumstance,
Does anyone truly understand.

Spellcheck

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What I do is effortless,
I’m channeling,
There is no wrong in what I write,
I don’t have to do it if I so don’t want,
I’m not greater loved if I do,
There are no conditions, 
I’m glad that I know this!

The Universe works slow,
He can give a damn about your plans,

A hoo-ha about your profits,
Drink and be merry,
Eat, sleep, and sh*t!

Five and Seven

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He has given greater gifts,

Greater than I could have imagined, 

To give to myself, 

When presented with them, my response, 

For me?

I've feared asking people for help,

Never wanted to see them, 

I beautifully painted over them, 

Never wanted to see them, 

I decorated characteristics, 

Characteristics they never had, 

Never wanted to see them.

Winx

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I knew my girl when I saw her,

I was standing on Flamingo,

I watched her run, and she won,

Through telepathy, she contacted me,

"Momma, watch me run!"

Ow, what grace I am given,

Grace to be able to stumble upon that race,

What haven't I forgiven myself for,

The sorrow and tears,

I can't recall, but certainly something went wrong.

Never Goodbye

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You will be a witness to my testimony,

We have never said goodbye,

You will scroll, stalk, like, comment, and subscribe,

You will energetically promote me with your silence.

I am the Mother,

The gift is in my energy,

The healing is in my frequency,

I reign in His Kingdom,

It is He, it is never I.

It doesn't matter how I choose to live my life,

We will all be scrutinized,

We are all imperfect,

Perfectly in His divine plan.

Indigo

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I might as well be dead,
I’m certainly not living.

This time clock life,
I barely see the sun,
Ow, the night is cold,
Looking at faces I’ve grown to know,
Fragile and old, they move so slow.

No, I don’t want to be them,
It’s so indecent, this indecent hour.

The people-pleaser,
Living an old poor rundown life.

I heard this woman sing about her king,
He is Vice President of nothing, 

Gladly, she shares her fairytale,
This is such a weird flex.

Chocolatier

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Chocolate,

I just released endorphins in my brain,

To make me feel happy.

Serotonin,

AI,

Ai,

Neurotransmitter,

Hey I, Hey I,

Aye I, Aye I,

I feel happy,

Do I,

Don’t I?

I crave happiness,

I want happiness.

Caffeine, 

The wake up drug,

I should wake up!

My heart rate has increased,

Do I feel love?

Life Review

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In spirit, why would I agree to this life?

I am my greatest love, 

My greatest deception.

It was the smile that I believed, 

The smile that covered my pain,

I thought it to be good. 

I watched my life unfold, 

I was like, 'ow yeah',

I agreed to live this life, 

Without the capacity to feel

Pain, 

Heartbreak,

Fear, 

Sadness, 

Hopelessness, 

Depression, 

And Isolation.

I saw her smile, 

I believed her smile, 

I thought it to be good, 

God agreed, 

He orchestrated my birth.

Leprechaun Shoes

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Constructive criticism

When I'm on my last wind,

Sounds like you're complaining.

No one's coming to-get-Her,

There is no sisterhood,

Women have never kept me safe.

Botox,

I have so many dried tears,

It's hard to move my face.

I manifested you,

Ms. Mischievous, 

You fit the unlucky description.

Reincarnation

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My loyalty destroyed my reincarnation

I was a dreamer, a poet, an artist, a Pisces 

I was the giver to the takers

The unmarried housewife 

The nickel and dime worker 

I was always hopeful 

It’s what kept me alive

I was the love to my lover

I died for him a thousand times

He promised me nothing

Served me a pack of lies

I gave him my body and soul 

I was generous with my life

I was a stage queen

Surrounded by bill collectors 

I never got an applaud 

From where I came from

She wasn’t proud of me

I was nobody 

I was ghosted

The money disappeared too

Vanished 

People disappeared with it

Fortune Teller

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Promise me love,

Two years from now.

Keep me hopeful,

Keep me daydreaming,

Sell me crystals,

Sell me tarot,

Sell me a private reading,

Sell me my future,

Sell me my fantasy,

Tell me my sweet,

Tell me sour things,

Tell me beware, 

Tell me, my dear.

Bad news

Forecasting a dark shadow

Over my life.

Michael

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Who needs a heart

Disappoint me now

Offering nothing 

Who needs emotion

Energy in motion

Intent to disappoint 

Who needs a heart 

You, give no love

You, do not care

You, have no plans, for me

Who needs a heart, with you

The type 

That sleeps around,

Turns around, and spits in your face

Who needs a heart for that

Child Actress

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The corners of her mouth turned down

Discovering an actress

It was as if she saw a ghost

Something foreign

An alien

Her stare was intense,

In total shock

You could read her mind

Racing with questions

How does she never break character?

Why is she doing this?

When did this start?

Who is she?

I thought I knew her.

Marsha

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I live a life of regret,

Made myself to be,

Who I needed to be,

They don't know who I am.

The shows been over,

The residency has ended,

I don't have to report there anymore.