While you are Sleeping

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I left your bedside
Catching tears of sorrow
Overwhelmed by my grief pouring onto my hands,
Catching tears of you, to hold on to you
Just a moment longer.
What am I going to do when you’re 
No longer here, just because.

I want to scream! as I cover my mouth holding my breath
While I am crying deeply, 
Suffocated by the death that looms,
Descending to take you away.

I sat by your bedside 
Surrendered to this sight 
Before my eyes, knowing that it’s not okay 
Anymore.
It’s not okay anymore,
It’s not okay anymore!
It’s not okay anymore!
Not okay anymore!
Ow God, it’s not okay anymore.

I continue to allow myself to cry, 
On days when I’m not okay, 
Anymore. 

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