Forgiveness

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Remember, who hurt you

You can forgive, but you can't go...

Forgetting.

That dark place, which He has dragged you out of,

Still exist,

The energy is still there,

Ready to steal your spirit of joy,

Welcoming you back,

Like home,

Slowly unraveling all the stitches of your smile,

Opening wounds to bleed over your new life.

Dinner at the Diner | Poetry (video, click to watch)

Video, Poem originally posted December 13, 2020 - Dinner at the Diner

This poem was inspired by (my favorite Christmas song) Luther Vandross, Every Year, Every Christmas.

I'd see him once a year / this time of year / 

in my dreams / in my wishes / in my heart /

yesterday / you weren't here /

not in my mind /

not in my desires / 

not in the blinking of my tears /

it's the gathering / the turkey

the yams / the cornbread 

the champagne glasses clinking / 

the gossip / the glances I'm avoiding / 

the low lights/ the soft caroling music / 

in this neighborhood restaurant /

where everybody knows what they

know / the coupling

the feeling of emptiness /

as I stare at the train that wraps around the base 

of the Christmas tree / reminds me

of how long I waited at Grand Central Station /

to find out how much you loved me

Christmas Eve | Poetry (video, click to watch)

Video, Poem originally posted December 21, 2021 - Christmas Eve

There is nothing in the night that I want

Seeing your light,

There's no love in moonlight,

An intoxicating glow that fades in daylight,

A fantasy gone at sunrise,

There's no love in thee illuminated night.

Glam done at ten

...for ten numbers on a napkin,

His name, handwriting to examine,

He seemed really smart,

Said he had a smart job,

He was pretty clean, smelled divine,

Charming, funny, real attentive,

Generous, kept replenishing my drink.

Could these be the winning numbers?

A jackpot of true love destined for me,

Is this how we were meant to meet?

On Christmas Eve,

Dialin' it up, Callin' him now,

About to gamble my heart like the lotto,

"Hello"

Wait, some woman just answered the phone.

There is nothing in the night that I want

Seeing your light,

There's no love in thee illuminated night.

Don't Meet the Family

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A room full of women,

Present, present, present,

Every holiday,

Every birthday,

Every Mother's Day,

Every celebration.

A room full of women,

All invited, 

Girlfriend,

Baby-momma,

Boo-thang,

Wifey, but not engaged.

Emotionally invested,

Financially invested,

Present, present, present,

Helping his family grow,

Pregnant, pregnant, pregnant,

Buying his family gifts,

Present, present, present,

Auditioning for the family,

Devalued and not the prize.

City Visits

Photo by Vladimir Došenović

Bang, Bang, Bang!

It's the city, open up!

Oh, how's the property today?

How's your smiling face?

Let me rock your door,

Crack it with lightning bolts,

There is power in this balled fist,

Let me show you who I am!

This energy that I've created,

This energy that's unwelcomed,

This energy to disrupt,

This energy before my screaming voice!

The Universe

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You're not afraid 

Of love.

That wasn't love.

You've never experienced it.

Look around...

And then,

Look up.

Ink

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I am

Black,

The 

Silhouette

Of

Life.

Blue Moon Almond Smoothie | Lifestyle (video, click to watch)

Welcome,

The idea for this smoothie came along after trying to figure out how to use the unnecessary amount of rolled oats that I have. I don't enjoy eating rolled oats in the morning, and I'm over trying. I've decided to put it in a smoothie to get the benefits of eating oats. I admit this smoothie is a bit what I like to call on the "rich" side. It's probably one that you would make once in a blue moon. The ingredients can be adjusted, so you're not feeling like you need a nap after drinking it. I thought about adding nutmeg. I could do without the banana and adjust the almond butter to one tablespoon. However, this recipe is a base for many different smoothies. I have to experiment more. I hope you enjoy your smoothie.

*update, I'm now using Torani vanilla syrup instead of vanilla extract.

Thanks, 

Ms. Casila

Pineapple Ginger Tea | Lifestyle (video, click to watch)

Welcome,

I made another ginger tea for you.  This time I added pineapple.  You can use fresh pineapple or canned pineapple for this drink.  I hope you enjoy your cup of tea.  Check out my other videos. 

Thanks, 

Ms. Casila

Lemon Ginger Tea | Lifestyle (video, click to watch)

Welcome,

This blog wasn't originally a poetry blog.  You won't be seeing any haircare product reviews or tutorials on this blog, but I want to add other relevant content to expand my audience.  Think of everything "cozy" that you might need as a writer or reader.  I have a few ideas for new content that I could incorporate to spice things up.  I hope you enjoy your cup of tea. 

Thank you,

Ms. Casila

She

Ms. Casila - Photo by Casila

I will always have a good person in my life,
That person is me,

I will always have someone who loves me unconditionally,

That person is me.

I will always have someone who supports me,

When I look in the mirror, 

That person is she,

She compliments me,

Encourages me,

She's forever concerned with my well-being.

She's always there for me,

That person is me.

Positive Affirmations | Poetry (video, click to watch)

Video, Poem originally posted June 2, 2022 - Positive Affirmations

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Whispers

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I see life in your eyes

The burnt orange sunlight exploding

Speckles of blue

The air from my lungs sucked in

Smothered with kisses

Bathed in your sexual mystery

Never able to figure out what was whispered

Always forgetting to ask

Somehow, I comprehend 

The whispering of sweet nothings

Carrying the energy code of everything

Let The Crab Eat The Bull

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Some people are light dimmers, forever flickering between friend and foe. - Ms. Casila 

Self-sacrifice is not a ticket into Heaven, my dear

Slaving for people who don’t really care,

Putting them first, and you’re not treated fair,

Emptying yourself, 

Filling their cup, 

Enriching their lives

Building them up.

They tear you down,

Steal your joy, 

Devour your life,

Slowly chip away to have more of your day, 

Slowly chip away to have more of your strength, 

Slowly chip away to have more of your faith,

You better learn sooner to leave them right there.

Positive Affirmations

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I am ageless

I am blessed

I am courageous

I am divine

I am excellence

I am favored

I am gracious

I am honorable

I am intelligent

I am joyful

I am kind

I am loved

I am mindful

I am nurturing

I am optimistic

I am poetic

I am queen

I am royalty

I am successful

I am treasured

I am unforgettable

I am victorious

I am woman

I am xo

I am youthful

I am zest

I am the mother to my inner child.  It is my responsibility that she is treated well. - Ms. Casila

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Ardent Flames of Love

Lit Candle - Photo by Casila

I am the one He chooses, over and over, and over again,

Every morning when His light is in my eyes, after my darkest nights,

I am perfectly loved with all my imperfections accepted,

I am perfected in His presence, because He died for me,

I am showered with grace and mercy, because He died for me,

I am divinely guided and protected, because He died for me.

I am the one that He loves, I am the one, over and over, and over again, 

I am washed of all of my sins, He doesn't even remember them!

I am shown that I am loved, over and over, and over again, 

I am chosen.  He chooses me!

His undying love, 

Flames!

Legacy

Prince at Michigan & Ohio - Photo by Casila 

When I’m gone,
Show me, Lord.
Let them be moved,
Filled with emotion,
Let them cry.

Lifeguard | Poetry (video, click to watch)

Video, Poem originally posted May 29, 2020 - Lifeguard

Drowning,

Now that everyone's let go,

Slipped down their fingertips,

No longer grasped by our relationship, 

Sinking. 

Who would come and save me?

I sunk deep in disappointment, 

From every relationship that I tried, 

To build. 

It became ever clear, 

There was no one there, 

Just the beaming sunlight in the sky

Surrounded by the reality of this abyss, 

Filled with sadness,

Tears. 

Then I saw Him, 

He didn't swim out to save me,

Majestically, 

He walked,

Patiently,

With Grace

On water

To save me. 

Thank you, Lord.

Thin Mints | Poetry (video, click to watch)

Video, Poem originally posted September 15, 2020 - Thin Mints

My husband was home

I smell bergamot, pepper, cardamom, saffron, and leather

He left a note on the kitchen island 

It read, "I ate the last thin mint cookie" so petty

I can't entertain him ruffling my feathers

Rolling my eyes headed to the wine cellar

What do I see next to 14 Hands, his empty glass

With exhausted hands, I carry it to the kitchen 

Turn on the faucet and in the sink, a teabag

Sometimes he can be so draining, am I surprised

Aries

Prayer Candles - Photo by Casila

Burn my body when I die

Leave no bones in this land

People, I don't know

Don't carry my bones to my homeland

Land, that I don't know

Turn me to ashes

Turn me to dust

Burn my body when I die

Burn the hatred I've experienced throughout my life

Burn the target on my back!

Burn this temple!

For my soul is no longer there

Thou Art

I Dream in Color (4pc) - Photo and Art by Casila

*I no longer have the art photographed.

Ever notice that the human experience is blissful, at moments

Intoxicating, joyous, as if holding hands, spinning round and round

Ever notice how a feather settles gently at the right time, purposeful 

You noticed, yes you noticed, the feather lightly land

You noticed, yes you noticed, somethings, something

You noticed, some moments

Marriage

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When I married you

That was me saying...

I'm repping you for life

Yes, I'll take your last name

Yes, I want to be your partner

I want to spend the rest of my life

Elevating in life

If we should fall into bad times

I'm your partner during those times

Two is always better than one

Together, we are stronger

The Tour

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Somebody, please save me

His world is much too dark

I want to follow him

I do, I want to see his eyes

He makes me feel alive

Someone come save me

From his grasp, that I like

The Gated Garden | Poetry (video, click to watch)

Video, Poem originally posted May 4, 2020 - The Gated Garden

You wanted into my garden.
Wanted this wild flower.
Be prepared to see 
my imperfections, as I am
pulling up weeds 
planting new seeds, growing
maturing into my purpose 
on Earth.

You wanted in my garden.
To see this wild flower.
Be prepared for the storms,
for when it rains it pours,
things may appear muddy
with puddles of tears
everywhere
when the sun doesn’t shine
on my life.

Mix-Tape & Rap | Poetry (video, click to watch)

Video, Poem originally posted June 22, 2020 - Mix-tape

You treated me like crap,
It’s a good thing that I’m treating myself
Better!
There was no place in the world
I wanted to be
If I had to be, me.

I believed in you
Uplifted you,
No reciprocity,
Greater than grand,
The Grand Poohbah,
Crowned and exalted,
You stood tall on my support,
With two feet firmly planted.

Spoke it into existence,
Believed in it, when you didn't believe,
Until it became a reality,
You floated on the power of my prayers,
From the breath of my words,
The air from my lungs,
From my heart given with love,
Completely drained my energy,
Nada in return,

Burned your mix-tape.

Honey, I'm Home

Photo by Maria Bortolotto

Your voice is the rescue my heart waits for

It brings harmony to moments before

I color myself in your aura 

My arms dance around to embrace you

You're like cherry wood 

Sophisticated

You're like cherry chapstick

Tasted

You're like cherry vodka 

Effen Ultimate Cosmo

The relaxing highlight of my day

To many more years

Cheers!

Temporary Reprieve

Keys - Photo by Casila

This home was built to keep me safe

To sleep in warmth

To prepare meals to eat 

To shower my stress away

My santuary to pray

To mediate the confusion away.

My happiness was felt here

Happy, when I set a vase of flowers on my table

Happy, when I lit scented candles to perfume the air

Happy, when I sipped hot tea infront of the tv

My temporary reprieve from suffering.

7:02 p.m.

7:02 p.m. Clock - Photo by Casila

Never complain about the slowness of time.  Someone else may be needing a moment.  You needed a moment.  - Ms. Casila

I'm excited, I'm so anxious

I know it's going to happen for me

Gosh, I wish time would just hurry

I'm all set and ready

I know it's coming

I can't wait to see

I just know it, I can feel it

Ugh, what time is it?

Angel Numbers

Believe - Photo by Casila

Everyone 

Helping me

I can't see

Invisible

Energy

Ghostly

Angels 

Communicating

On clocks

Addresses

Receipts

Reminding me

Directing me

There's still a plan 

Something

Destined

Mr. Dapper | Poetry (video, click to watch)

Video, Poem originally posted August 3, 2020 - Mr. Dapper

look at what I wanted / look at what I desired /

someone who would never show me his truth /

In love with the mystery of a man / he was so charming 

and handsome / had a presence / he would never go unseen /

a dapper gentleman / smelled of amber / myrrh

and testosterone / I was enamored / I was strung along 

on a budding love’s high / blinded by expectations / 

envisioned a desirable vision of love / enjoyed the joyride

like a sightseeing lift passing by evergreen / the scenic route

filled with all my imaginings / gassed up what we really were /

eyes glossed over in total admiration / in denial /

obsessed with my fantasy / being in his company /

I romanticized his every action / valued them more 

than the effort and thought he put into them / appreciated 

every moment of him / given to me / slowly I was 

lowered down to reality / down to common sense /

it picked at my subconscious / taunted me 

with where we would eventually be / off the high 

and thrill  / when all becomes familiar 

and I am no longer the spark and newness in his life / 

rumored to be a ladies man / why didn’t I think 

he’d do me the same way?

Stronger | Poetry (video, click to watch)

Video, Poem originally posted June 26, 2017 - Stronger

Evolve at your own pace. You can't force flowers to bloom. - Ms. Casila

If I can not save the world

Please use me to save one soul,

Make me stronger.

Mountains to the east, mountains to the west,

All I feel…

All I feel are mountains,

When life looked bleak, I declared I had no possibilities,

He made it possible!

I’m living through His grace and mercy,

His grace and mercy continues to make me stronger.

Prayer

Photo by cottonbro from Pexels

All your problems belong at my Son's feet,

Have gratitude for what you have,

Complain none,

Worry none,

Wait.

Untitled, April 2020 | Poetry (video, click to watch)

Video, Poem originally posted April 16, 2020 - Untitled, April 2020

Would you let your ex-spouse walk you down the aisle if you remarried? 

I would light the path for your heart,
To find true love,
If I could. 

I would walk you into uncertainty, 
If it meant you would be married, 
Again,
If it meant you would live life in a better light,
More than what I was able to provide, 
I’d give you away.

I pray for the right words to say,
I stand here with my sin and shame, 
Looking back on all the mask I wore,
I knew I wasn’t the right man, 
For you.

I’m filled with so much regret,
I just want to remove my air from around you,
I want to remove my ugly stains from your skin,
I want to separate the daylight between us,
I am the darkness, the gloom
That consumes your life, even after marriage 
I wasn’t a changed man.

I hope, 
That you will try to find true love,
Again,
I would walk you down the aisle
If I could,
Towards a godly man,
I’d give you away.